You have to try to live on your terms, or you will regret it in the long run. If you don’t, no matter how successful you are it will never be enough. You will always need more. You will be beholden to an abstract idea of who you thought you should be instead of who you are. It’s easy to fall into this trap. I know I have. It’s like being on auto pilot, and not engaged in life. Turn this around and take small steps to gain back control. As long as you take them you will be on your way.