Unrealized expectations are tough to swallow. All this talk and all this preparation and you will come out flat. Realize there are blind spots that you will not be able to see. Plumb the depths and sometimes you will come up empty. When you build something up that is fake it’s bound to crash hard. Then you have to justify it with cognitive dissidence. Because your reflection has been shattered. Just remember that world in your mind and mind alone. It can be changed.